Medical School

I'm suprised sometimes about how much I want to get into medical school. I don't think I realised how much you could want something to happen until I found out that was the direction I wanted to go in.

Sometimes its a deep physical ache. I think about how I might not get in and its akin to pain.

I'm going to need a reference from the tutor I am doing my current course with. Only I can't ask him about it just yet because we are clashing over something. Not really clashing, but our personalities seem to clash. He made an assumption and certain misjudgments over what area I wanted to research.

I corrected the misjudgements in the nicest most polite way I know how. I can not read how well he is recieving them. He also seems the sort to not think before he says something or types. So a lot of the time he has included outright errors in logic. I have not corrected or questioned those yet. Though everytime I read one I get a strong OCD like twitch to do so.

I am hoping that it is just the tension growing in me from repressing the urge to question these errors. Rather than any negative feelings he is actually showing toward me in the replies. Hopefully I have not messed anything up.

My plan that if I recieve a good mark in my assignment (hope so) then I will approach the idea of asking him for a reference in the future. Then I also need to concentrate on the ukcat, my other assignments and the gamsat which means the most to me right now.