I've got training for my new job. I got a new job by the way in case I haven't mentioned it yet. It does mean that the assignment I've been fretting about because I've got to finish it before the 18th of feb...well because of all of this training I now need to finish it for the 10th of feb.
Yeah...its really not going well either. Its going to be a stressful next few weeks I think.
I had to move my driving lesson to march because of the training. Gives me more time I guess though I really do want it over and done with. I'm spending 80 pounds per week just on driving lessons and I still haven't gotten a pay check yet. Fun stuff.
I think priorities are in order. First priority is to complete this assignment as soon as possible.
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Hate driving lessons
I wish I had passed already and didn't have to do anymore. They are annoying. I don't know why but I just get so stressed out before them and to some extent during them. Maybe cause I hate messing up so much or something. Or maybe because I've been doing them so long I just wanna pass already.
Training is stressful, but I think I just need to get used to it. Hopefully. I need to do another assignment really soon, as in the next couple of weeks and I am nowhere near ready to tackle it. I feel like I barely understand any of the concepts. Sure I can run a multiple regression, but interaction effects still confound me. And explaining the results can be easier said than done. First solid mapping out of assignment is tomorrow. Hoping to look over my last assignment so I don't repeat the same mistakes and at least run the first analysis. And link each part of the assignment to its collelating background reading so I can re-read and go over as many of the concepts in my other book as well so I understand them as well as possible.
Then theres the new job. I think I do have it. They've said I have at least. Want to get my assignment done asap as have training sometime with them next month. They haven't said when yet.
This weekend is mostly eaten up by training, but I have some of the three days beforehand to do things. Then hopefully the week after.
If I want to get my life sorted before I am 28 then I need to do more and I need to do it faster and perferably better. If by the end of next month I have this assignment done, the driving test passed and most of the training out of the way that will help. Then theres just the little matter of everything else that needs doing.
Training is stressful, but I think I just need to get used to it. Hopefully. I need to do another assignment really soon, as in the next couple of weeks and I am nowhere near ready to tackle it. I feel like I barely understand any of the concepts. Sure I can run a multiple regression, but interaction effects still confound me. And explaining the results can be easier said than done. First solid mapping out of assignment is tomorrow. Hoping to look over my last assignment so I don't repeat the same mistakes and at least run the first analysis. And link each part of the assignment to its collelating background reading so I can re-read and go over as many of the concepts in my other book as well so I understand them as well as possible.
Then theres the new job. I think I do have it. They've said I have at least. Want to get my assignment done asap as have training sometime with them next month. They haven't said when yet.
This weekend is mostly eaten up by training, but I have some of the three days beforehand to do things. Then hopefully the week after.
If I want to get my life sorted before I am 28 then I need to do more and I need to do it faster and perferably better. If by the end of next month I have this assignment done, the driving test passed and most of the training out of the way that will help. Then theres just the little matter of everything else that needs doing.
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
So I may have a job
I still don't really believe it and I won't until the paperwork is finished and I get my first pay check.
Should have my first shadow shift thing late this week, then I'll be more convinced. Also got two more driving lessons this week and my first weekend of police training. I'm very nervous, mostly cause it means I will likely have to stay there overnight. I really don't like staying in strange places overnight.
Planning on getting as much sleep as possible in the couple of nights beforehand because I'm not convinced I'll be able to get any sleep.
In all the recent excitment I'm way behind with my work. Not impressed with myself and am trying to catch up. Friday seems my only day thats not completely jam packed. So will do what I can then around the driving lesson and other things that day.
I'll just have to get used to all these new routines. If I do really have the job (verbally confirmed but no paperwork yet) then it will be great.
I also have my pgce interview next week and braces on. Fun, stressful and painful things ahead.
Should have my first shadow shift thing late this week, then I'll be more convinced. Also got two more driving lessons this week and my first weekend of police training. I'm very nervous, mostly cause it means I will likely have to stay there overnight. I really don't like staying in strange places overnight.
Planning on getting as much sleep as possible in the couple of nights beforehand because I'm not convinced I'll be able to get any sleep.
In all the recent excitment I'm way behind with my work. Not impressed with myself and am trying to catch up. Friday seems my only day thats not completely jam packed. So will do what I can then around the driving lesson and other things that day.
I'll just have to get used to all these new routines. If I do really have the job (verbally confirmed but no paperwork yet) then it will be great.
I also have my pgce interview next week and braces on. Fun, stressful and painful things ahead.
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
Either stressed or low blood sugar
Or a combination of both. I started driving lessons again. I asked for a patient instructor. I got a hardass.
Hoping it works for me and I can meet up to his expectations. I'll try my best at least but driving is most definately not something I find at all easy. I'm scared of failing but I'm not going to let that stop me from trying my best.
Its added mountains to my stress levels though. This morning I was ok. A little juttery maybe from having a new instructor since my last one dumped me for some unknown reason. I got home after my first lesson with the new instructor and have been bounching with tension since.
I even had to do umpteen paces, bounches and chin ups before I could calm down enough to sit down and watch my reward episode of something. I also bit and hit myself, but nothing too bad. I've done more bounches, paces and chin ups since. I'm still not completely what I like to call 'stable' - which basically just refers to my mood seeming stable.
At least it means I get a lot of exercise when I am stressed. I am trying to muscle up a little so I guess it could be useful.
It could also be my blood sugar, or most likely a combination of the two. I'll have to keep a closer eye on what I eat. I have been eating more sugars lately given all the christmas leftovers and lack of other foods. Maybe if I get that in order I'll feel more stable.
I just feel like I can run forever, but I know that even if that takes the edge off for a little while it won't last long. I'll probuly be using the treadmill a lot more over the next few weeks.
I just have to keep thinking that when I pass this test I won't have to bother with any driving instructors again. I just have to keep focused and not fall off the rails because of this.
If I just stick with it, by the end of feb I could be free. With a licence I'll be able to drive a car. With that I can have more freedom to live my own life. I just have to stick with it.
Hoping it works for me and I can meet up to his expectations. I'll try my best at least but driving is most definately not something I find at all easy. I'm scared of failing but I'm not going to let that stop me from trying my best.
Its added mountains to my stress levels though. This morning I was ok. A little juttery maybe from having a new instructor since my last one dumped me for some unknown reason. I got home after my first lesson with the new instructor and have been bounching with tension since.
I even had to do umpteen paces, bounches and chin ups before I could calm down enough to sit down and watch my reward episode of something. I also bit and hit myself, but nothing too bad. I've done more bounches, paces and chin ups since. I'm still not completely what I like to call 'stable' - which basically just refers to my mood seeming stable.
At least it means I get a lot of exercise when I am stressed. I am trying to muscle up a little so I guess it could be useful.
It could also be my blood sugar, or most likely a combination of the two. I'll have to keep a closer eye on what I eat. I have been eating more sugars lately given all the christmas leftovers and lack of other foods. Maybe if I get that in order I'll feel more stable.
I just feel like I can run forever, but I know that even if that takes the edge off for a little while it won't last long. I'll probuly be using the treadmill a lot more over the next few weeks.
I just have to keep thinking that when I pass this test I won't have to bother with any driving instructors again. I just have to keep focused and not fall off the rails because of this.
If I just stick with it, by the end of feb I could be free. With a licence I'll be able to drive a car. With that I can have more freedom to live my own life. I just have to stick with it.
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